Ok so my days are back to normal. I didn't have any parties planned so I did well this week. Grand total, I have lost 17 pounds in about a months time. 5 pounds this week and I still wasn't perfect.

You know, I really thought this whole loosing weight thing would be really hard and I wouldn't be able to stick with it. I mean, yeah I don't work out some days, yeah I have too many cheerios, I still over eat. I can't believe that I can do all those things and still loose weight. I guess over 300 pounds makes it easier to loose weight, it practically melts off with very little effort, but I'm sure the time will come when I have to start eating low fat foods, or workout every day, or really have to commit to this whole losing weight thing. Hopefully by then, I will only be putting forth the same amout of willpower as I am now, but accomplishing greater things. In other words, the first thing I did was stop drinking Mtn Dew. At first it was hard. I was at work drinking water instead and it got old, fast. Now, not drinking Mtn Dew is second nature and its easy for me to turn it down. The hard part now is just sticking to eating healthy. Sometimes I do want to grill a hamburger or to go to Craigo's and pig out on their all you can eat pizza. Sometimes at night I want to eat some toast with peanut butter and jelly with a huge glass of milk. Or buy oreos. Or make fried chinese food. Or buy a snikers. But I don't and its getting easier to refuse those things as time goes on. It seems like my tastebuds change and things that I thought were disgusting and never liked suddenly become apetizing. For example, squash. I hated that crap as a kid. My mom made me eat it, like most mothers do, and just the other day i wend grocery shopping and saw squash on the shelf next to carrots and I thought about buying some. I didn't buy any but the point is that if I had seen that 2 months ago, I probably would have run and scream, but now as I eat healthy I crave things like that. I'm turning a new leaf and look forward to the day that I will be healthy.

Today I also went fishing. I caught 7 or 8 fish, mostly small guys, but it was a good day fishing. As I returned those fish back into the river, I needed to rinse my hands off in the river. It was hard for me to bend over and wash my hands, I had to lean on something or get on my knees. I was fishing with my buddy Brad and noticed that it was no problem for him to wash his hands off. I want to be able to have no problem with things like that, my blubber gets in my way and is rather embarassing sometimes. Things like that also keep me going and I look forward to the day I loose most of my weight and have no problem being athletic like I want to be.

So I guess I need to report. I kind of expected this because it was the 4th of July and my cousin was up from Utah. Aaron is fat too. Its kind of our thing. I had to give in. I actually gained .6 pounds. Not terrible I guess but its just kind of demotivating. Its funny how loosing weight motivates and not loosing demotivates even though eating bad felt so good.

I don't really have anything to report besides that. I did go on a huge hike again this week. My buddy Brad texted to see if I wanted to go hike in the mountains and check on the trail cam we put up last week. We hiked a few miles, gained some elevation and it was really a good hike. I have pics on facebook if you want to see.

Here's my sister Megan before and after. I'm using this for some motivation.

Time to report my week of fatness. I actually had a good week even though I ate some really bad foods. I have to say I was extremely nervous about not loosing weight. Last Wednesday after the weight in, Julene and I both were happy with the progress we had made. We were excited for the upcoming week and were determined to stick with it especially with the drop in pounds we had.

It wore off quick. Its kind of stupid but we went to Applebee's for dinner on friday for our weekly date. We both ordered the same thing. Chicken, broccoli and potatoes. 7 points. It was kind of disappointing and didn't curb our craving at all. The mozzarella sticks we ordered after we ate were delicious though. Number one mistake.

This week was also Julene's half birthday. Bring on the cake and ice cream. And the double cheeseburger from the barbecue we had for her birthday too. The Mtn Dew was just heavenly. I swear someone woke up and bottled that Dew that morning. I started drinking and couldn't stop...my eyes were tearing up, my throat was burning, my innards were being tickled and I felt like I could breath again. My goodness I love that memory. The cinnamon rolls Julene made for her Mary Kay party were good too.

I ate like crap, but when it comes right down to it, I still lost 4 pounds on the dot. So the count so far is 12.6 pounds in 2 weeks. Its motivation to see those numbers and also to have my sisters before and after pictures in front of me all the time. If she can do it so can I.

These two picture's illustrate how much I have gained in 6 months. On the left is Yellowstone two weeks ago. My weight is about 334 pounds. On the right is Portland Oregon in September of last year. I was probably under 300 but over 280. My goal is to hit 200 pounds and I think I can do it with weight watchers and some working out.